we planned to go out on 22th of nov..... we talked n dreamed bout that day...
we plan what we gona do, what to say, what to bring.... i missed those times...
n there, 22th of nov arrived......
me n him could not stop thinking bout what is gona happen ltr in the evening...
5.2opm
she did not let me go out.... she said it was dangerous n at last she knew.....
i looked at the clock n thought... he must be waiting eagerly to see me but i did not arrived... 5 minutes pass, 10 minutes pass.... tears roll down my cheek... in my heart i said to him "please forgive me.. i dint know this would happen... please understand..."
i could not think of what's gona happen to him... i knew he would be angry.... but i just kept my hopes high n thk positively....
23 of november
the next day, i text him.... he did not reply at first but ltr on he did.... i said i'm sorry n hope that he will understand but he said he couldn't understand.... n we decided to put this on hold till we are older.... i wouldnt mind that if we are alwiz see-ing each othr but we are not... n i couldn't tell him.. i was having mixed feelings... i dint know what to say... but i just said ok n moved on with it.. now i'm feeling empty n not sure of what's gona happen tmr... i hope this on hold thg wont be so long n that it would not affect our relationship...
oh God..... please help me to be strong.... i'm speechless n unsure of which direction i shud turn to... i hope i could press the connect button to stop the hold.... <3
